Nightmare

I had a nightmare today in class. (Yes, I was sleeping in class because it was darn boring and its optional. =P)

Yeaa, as I was saying, halfway through the lecture, my eyelids were getting really heavy, my brain was phasing out, so I decided just to nap in the lecture for a while.

I put my head down to the table, closed my eyes and the lecturer's voice slowly drift away. The next thing, I found myself at the same position of where I was, sleeping at the same posture. The atmosphere then sent chills down my spine and had the feeling of spirits floating around me, trying to touch me with their cold, chilly hands. When they did, I had goosebumps. But I was still sleeping. I tried to scream, I tried to wake up but I can't. The spirits just continue to float around me and reaching me... Cold, chilly hands. Dark figures...

The next thing I heard was the lecturer saying it was break time. I abruptly opened my eyes and glad to be there with ppl around me and not spirits....

Such a nightmare...  >_<

-wsw-

樓上來的聲音

海阔天空

我希望心里可以永远觉得海阔天空,
永远自由自我.
为何越大越做不到.

好想返到年幼的时候.

给你

只希望能会到从前

Something little to share

I've always come across people saying 'God has a weird/funny sense of humour' Doesn't matter if He is trying to tell you something or answering your prayer.

Here's a personal small testimony to further illustrate that.

For the past few days, I had been praying, telling Him I need to wake up early to study and to get use to waking up early in preparation for my 9am papers. He indeed did answer my prayer. =) For 2 consecutive days, the cleaners from my hall came in to my room and woke me up. The first day was to change my curtains and the second day was to ask me bout a missing chair. LOL! And the day after I am able to wake up to my alarm clock which I normally just snooze until I dunno what happened.

Yup!! Funny sense of humour indeed and I thank Him for making life more interesting this way. =))

-wsw-

My Wish

Its has been 22 years since I was brought to this earth...
My life was never boring....
Every year, many good and bad experience, and through these I learn how to become a better person and how to take care of others feelings.

As I grow older, many things that doesn't make sense to me, made more sense now.
As I grow older, more and more responsibility are dumped on me.
As I grow older, I cannot be as carefree as I used to be because there are too many things to put into consideration.

Being who I am,
Being in the situation I grew up with,

I have become stronger than I thought,
I have become independent,
I have become protective,

Taking all these into account, being the older me,

I feel like I am a big big umbrella, to shelter others.
I feel the need to take care of others,
I feel the need to take up responsibilities and to make sure that everything is alright.

And because of all these,
No one has thought me as a weak person,
No one will come and protect me,
Everyone will think that "It's Shi Wei, she can do it."
Due to my character and my outlook.

Since highschool, all this weight I have been carrying. 

And it has not gone lighter a single bit,

but instead heavier and heavier.

I am getting tired...

I wish someone would come to me and say.

"Take this hand of mine,
I will share your weights,
I will protect you and watch over you,
I will give you comfort when you are sad,
You will not have to worry anymore."

Yeah.. This is my wish.


-wsw-