I know its ridiculous to say this, but I have to get it out of my system anyway.

I am sorry for I am not a pretty, cute, small and cuddly girl and I am tom boyish.. I am trying my best and at the same time trying not to lose myself. So, please give me some attention when I need some. Don't just ignore me like that and treat that I am invisible. Everywhere I go, I don't belong. 

Something little to share

I've always come across people saying 'God has a weird/funny sense of humour' Doesn't matter if He is trying to tell you something or answering your prayer.

Here's a personal small testimony to further illustrate that.

For the past few days, I had been praying, telling Him I need to wake up early to study and to get use to waking up early in preparation for my 9am papers. He indeed did answer my prayer. =) For 2 consecutive days, the cleaners from my hall came in to my room and woke me up. The first day was to change my curtains and the second day was to ask me bout a missing chair. LOL! And the day after I am able to wake up to my alarm clock which I normally just snooze until I dunno what happened.

Yup!! Funny sense of humour indeed and I thank Him for making life more interesting this way. =))

-wsw-

Heart warming

Once, when I was travelling London with a few friends. That night we were walking around sight-seeing and looking for the Tower Bridge to take pictures of. It was a very cold, wet and snowy night. Even ourselves with thick jackets, we feel quite cold. As we were walking along the pedestrian streets to the Tower Bridge after coming out of the underground station, we saw this poor homeless young men hugging himself so tight by the stairs under the bridge trying to take shelter. He looked like the usual people asking for alms, so we walked past him and went ahead to get a better view of the bridge to take picture of it. But as we were walking off, I saw this  pretty young lady went into Starbucks which is just nearby, bought a cup of hot drink and gave it to the young men. This act is just so heart warming and to know there still people like this in the society shows that there is still hope and we can change how things are.

This pretty young lady brings a smile in your heart. =))


I meant to post this up earlier but I forgot but now I remember. =)

Start of something new

Its been the 3rd week into my 2nd year of MechEng! It isn't something very glad to look forward to, because I have to start working, start squeezing my brain with loads of stuffs, wake up very early in the morn to go for class but in the end found fishing instead, responsibilities to take and lots more... Doesn't seem much fun with all that..

But.. On a lighter note, there are friends around me everyday where we can have lunch, joke, crap and get crazy with, without worrying bout what time we sleep, what time is the curfew.. Hehehe.. The freedom that I have finally! =D

First up with assignment is a design project where we have to design a automatic drive connection which actually turns out to be a clutch...

The question is... How can I make a conventional clutch looks innovative and gave it a personal feel.. I will have to come up with a concept design soon.. Argh!!! Stress..

This sem.. I will have to face my killer sub again... THERMO!! Even more stress arrrrr......... Cannot even solve simple questions.. How to do in final??

But ahh well... Hopefully everything will turn out well as long as I put effort into doing it.. =) I shall leave it God's hand and play my part as well.. =)

The pain of not having a car.

This weekend is a long weekend because Monday is Thaipusam. Lots of ppl going back to hometown to enjoy the last few days of Chinese New Year. Me, not so different from the others also thinking the same thing as I can foresee the future that I will be busy with things... ：S But unfortunately for me that the bus tickets and train tickets are only left with ones for late night... Haiz.... Somemore have to travel from notts to pudu and kl central... Thanks to Pei Wern, she saved me a trip from Kajang ktm station... She dropped me off and BTS but still the journey to KL is long and not so fun....

I so wish that I have a car and drive back whenever I want... But the maintainance is high ler... Sigh...

Screwed!

I dunno what has been happening recently. Everything I do is all wrong. Starting with my exams to relationships with friends and family. I guess this is not the right year for me. This is screwed up year for me. I always tell people that the darkest hour is nearest to dawn but when you personally is in that situation, dawn is like centuries or maybe forever to come.

I hate myself for being a stupid ass as I am. Doing and saying the wrong things at the wrong time. Hurting someone without even knowing it. Falling when I know I shouldn't be. Screwing the exams when I know that I will disappoint a very important person in life eventhough I worked hard for it. I really do pray that she will understand.

Sorry ppl for being a irrational and too sensitive. Hope you guys will forgive the screwed up Shi Wei.

Verge of breaking down.

Life is Like a Boat

This song is one of the Bleach endings which is sang by Rie Fu and I find it quite meaningful. 

Nobody knows who I really amI never felt this empty before
And if I ever need someone to come along
Who's gonna comfort me and keep me strong

We are all rowing the boat of fate
The waves keep on comin' and we can't escape
But if we ever get lost on our way
The waves would guide you through another day

Tookude iki wo shiteru toumei ni nattamitai
Kurayami ni omoe takedo mekaku shisarete tadake
Inori wo sasagete atarashii hi wo matsu
Azayaka ni hikaru umi sono hate made

Nobody knows who I really am
Maybe they just don't give a damn
But if I ever need someone to come along
I know you would follow me, and keep me strong

Hito no kokoro wa utsuri yuku nukedashita kunaru
Tsuki wa mata atarashii shuuki de fune wo tsureteku

And every time I see your face, 
The oceans heave up to my heart
You make me wanna strain at the oars, 
And soon I can see the shore

Oh, I can see the shore
When will I... see the shore? 

I want you to know who I really am
I never thought I'd feel this way towards you
And if you ever need someone to come along
I will follow you, and keep you strong

Tabi wa mada tsudzuiteku odayakana hi mo
Tsuki wa mata atarashii shuuki de fune wo terashidasu
Inori wo sasagete atarashii hi wo matsu
Azayaka ni hikaru umi sono hate made

And every time I see your face, 
The oceans heave up to my heart
You make me wanna strain at the oars, 
And soon I can see the shore

Unmei no fune wo kogi
Nami wa tsugi kara tsugi e to
Watashitachi wo osou kedo
Sore mo suteki na tabi ne
Dore mo suteki na tabi ne

The english translation for it... 

Nobody knows who I really am
I never felt this empty before
And if I ever need someone to come along
Who's gonna comfort me, and keep me strong?

We are all rowing the boat of fate
The waves keep on comin' and we can't escape
But if we ever get lost on our way
The waves would guide you through another day

Breathing in the distance 
As if I've become transparent
It seemed to be the dark
But I was merely blindfolded

I offer my prayers 
And wait for a new day
To the end of the sea 
That shines vividly

Nobody knows who I really am
Maybe they just don't give a damn
But if I ever need someone to come along
I know you would follow me, and keep me strong

People's hearts move 
And want to slip out
The moon in its new cycle 
Brings along boats again

And every time I see your face,
The oceans heave up to my heart
You make me wanna strain at the oars,
And soon I can see the shore

Oh, I can see the shore
When will I see the shore?

I want you to know who I really am
I never thought I'd feel this way towards you
And if you ever need someone to come along
I will follow you, and keep you strong

The journey is still continuing
On the calm days, too
The moon in its new cycle 
Begins to shine on boats again

I offer my prayers 
And wait for a new day
To the end of the sea 
That shines vividly

And every time I see your face,
The oceans heave up to my heart
You make me wanna strain at the oars,
And soon I can see the shore

Rowing the boat of destiny
The waves assault us
One after the next
But that's a wonderful journey, too
Any one of them is a wonderful journey

Break time

Wheeee!!! Finally, I get to take a breathe to dota, to help PW in the props, to hang out with TTS 5 gang of ppl... But that is for now, I can forsee that there are more to come... =( More of studying than anything else... 

Gambateh me!!!!

Gambateh everyone in Nottingham!!

Gambateh to all that is reading this!!!

Cheers!

Assignments!!

Well... My week this week will be packed with my assignments... I can't go for ZOORIFFIC!! But on the other hand I am going welding in Shah Alam this Sat... That is the only thing that makes me feel happy and look forward to this weekend... =)

A list of to do list till next week ends.
- Car jack poster on 1st Dec
- C programming on 1st Dec
- Thermodynamics on 1st Dec
- Maths test on 2nd Dec
- Lab report on 3rd Dec
- Deco for the Christmas Party
- Cf Camp meetings and planning
-Study for the coming exams

ARGH!!!! I am going crazy... Someone kill me so that I don have to do this buggers... >.<

By the way, wish me luck in my presentation later today... I am so gonna die.... D=

Not cheering...