3 more to go!!

Today was the third paper.. Spent sleepless night on the freaking papers!

ARGH!!!!!

That's the consequence of procrastinating.. Never learn the lesson though... Aiks...

3 more to go.. More sleepless nights! I am currently like a dying undead.. Oximoron as Pei Wern says it.. XD

Freedom is calling me already... I can hear it.. Not too far away... Just need to stay on and persevere!!!

I can do it!!!~~~

Exams

Exams are just a few days ahead.. This time the exams I am going to die... I really cannot concentrate in studying. I blame myself. I know after exams, there are plenty of things waiting for me to enjoy and I am really suppose to do good in the exams so that I would not disappoint her..

Oh my gosh!! 

I thought that exams can help me take my mind of things, but, it does not happen. I am contradicting myself everyday... I want to and yet I don't want to.. My heart speaks of something I hate.. I really cannot control where my heart goes already.. It wandered off to darkness and I am trying hard to bring it back to light... 

Someone smack me in the head and tell me that all these are not worth my time and energy.

Someone help me!!!!!! Someone please help me up from this dreaded hole!

Exams! Please overwhelm me!

Fell...

Chance

It was like in stealth mode, just passed me by without me even noticing it. It is frustrating and annoying.

Forgetting and moving on.

It is not as easy as it sounds. I promised that it will all return to normal once I come back but I guess not. It is really tough to let go. My fingers are like being glued into a fist by some super glue which needs super chemical to dissolve. How I wish the glue is used to piece the shattered pieces back again.

Memories

It lingers and I love how it was like. Alas, it would only remain as memories and history would not repeat itself anymore.

Triggers

It is everywhere. It haunts me. Wherever I am, there it will be. I just hope to find a place where I can hide myself from them so that the glue on the shattered pieces will dry. Now it is like washing the pieces whenever glue is applied.

Time

Time will heal, it is said. How long? No one knows. Action speaks louder than words. Ya, sure...

Wish that I was not that transparent.

Emptiness

Dunno why.. Dunno how.... Even though I have anticipated the reply/response, but I always hope and long to see something more, something that would surprise me, something that I did not anticipate.... It never happened... Each and every single time ended with disappointment and emptiness... I sometimes wonder if it is an excuse or is it really the truth... =( Can someone tell me what I should think. Can someone give me assurance of what is happening... It is always that hard? Or is it just me??

5 months later, what will happen? No one can tell the future..

Well for now, I can only sit and wait and accept whatever may come to me now...

The pain of not having a car.

This weekend is a long weekend because Monday is Thaipusam. Lots of ppl going back to hometown to enjoy the last few days of Chinese New Year. Me, not so different from the others also thinking the same thing as I can foresee the future that I will be busy with things... ：S But unfortunately for me that the bus tickets and train tickets are only left with ones for late night... Haiz.... Somemore have to travel from notts to pudu and kl central... Thanks to Pei Wern, she saved me a trip from Kajang ktm station... She dropped me off and BTS but still the journey to KL is long and not so fun....

I so wish that I have a car and drive back whenever I want... But the maintainance is high ler... Sigh...

Bring'in Da Noise

RULES:
1. Put your iTunes, Windows Media Player, etc. on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS.
4. Make a sentence with the specified song title!
4. Tag 10 friends.
5. Everyone tagged has to do the same thing.
6. Have Fun!

IF SOMEONE SAYS 'ARE YOU OKAY' YOU SAY?
不能说的秘密 - 周杰伦

HOW WOULD YOU DESCRIBE YOURSELF?
What About Now - Chris Daughtry

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
我不配 - 周杰伦

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
Whatever It Takes - Lifehouse

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
Lonely In Gorgeous - Paradise Kiss

WHAT'S YOUR MOTTO?
七里香 - 周杰伦

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Keliru - 乌风铃

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
安静 - 周杰伦

I don't think anyone will view my as quiet. XD

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
Erosion - Switchfoot

WHAT IS 2 + 2?
Baby It's You - June

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
Oh Yeah! - Arashi

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
Take Me - Planet Shakers

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
Philosophy - W-inds

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Nowhere To Go - Backstreet Boys

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
Oh Happy Day - Lauren Hill (Sister Act 2)

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Party - Passion

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST??
太阳底下 - 孙燕姿

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR?
Best Friend - S Club 7

OMG-ness!!!!

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
In Pieces - Backstreet Boys

WHAT DO YOU WANT RIGHT NOW?
Sweet Sacrifice - Evanescence

Cannibalism.. Kekekeke...

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?

十面埋伏 - SHE

WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
Bring'in Da Noise - N'sync

Screwed!

I dunno what has been happening recently. Everything I do is all wrong. Starting with my exams to relationships with friends and family. I guess this is not the right year for me. This is screwed up year for me. I always tell people that the darkest hour is nearest to dawn but when you personally is in that situation, dawn is like centuries or maybe forever to come.

I hate myself for being a stupid ass as I am. Doing and saying the wrong things at the wrong time. Hurting someone without even knowing it. Falling when I know I shouldn't be. Screwing the exams when I know that I will disappoint a very important person in life eventhough I worked hard for it. I really do pray that she will understand.

Sorry ppl for being a irrational and too sensitive. Hope you guys will forgive the screwed up Shi Wei.

Verge of breaking down.

Expected the unexpected

Sorry my fellow blog readers for not updating my blog for a very very very very very long time already.... Was really busy preparing for the exams (Don't even mention about it). Today was the second paper and I still have 2 more to go!! T_T (Gambateh WSW!!!!) I will be last to finish my exam among my gang.... That is like so sad... Everyone will be celebrating and I will be only one left 'suffering'. -Sigh-

Anyway, this is not the reason why I am writing this blog entry. Thus, I shall throw it all in the deep blue sea dumpster. The reason why I am spending my time here writing this is because I had an expected but unexpected birthday surprise.

This month is a very 'hot' month for birthdays. In a single week there are actually 5 person's birthday (counting myself) and 2 of them is a must celebrate birthday... (T_T My purse!!!) Anyway...... The first must celebrate birthday is Miss Kuan's... She is one of my closest gal friend in uni where we always hang out together, pillow talk, share different views and opinions and etc etc... So on her birthday, which is a Sunday, us girls and the TTS 5 boys went out to Time square to enjoy!! It was a great day with great ppl!! =D We had pizza, a good romance comedy movie (where initially no one knows what it was all about) and the sticker pictures... !!!!!!! 

COOOOOL!!!!!!!

Oh did I forget to mention the unexpected thing... I got a kinda big teddy bear as a birthday gift from the guys!! THANK YOU GUYS!!!! -touched- It was really unexpected because it was given to me together with Pei Wern's and James pressies. I never ever thought that I would receive a gift on someone else's birthday celebration... XD

James's birthday was next, we hanged out at their place when the clock struck 12am. We made him icing sugar butter "J" with stars on it. XD And he enjoyed it!! ^^ He also had a very BIG jug of teh halia too!! It was hilarious when he realised that it was teh halia!!! =D 

Mine's next!! WHEEEE!!!! So, as usual, I was in the Central Teaching there, struggling with 'the psycho murderer', and as soon as it was 12, one orange figure and one -forgot the colour, soweee!!- figure came running towards me and hugged me wishing me happy birthday!! -hugs you both- Then as I was walking out, saw another orange figure standing there too... -hugs you too- So the trios led the way to the amphitheatre where more figures are and candle lights... I was half touched and half dunno how to react.... LOL!!! So, they did the normal thing lar, the song and stuff... What was unexpected was, instead of cake there were 20 munchies and 2 bottles of sparkling juice!!!! =D -huggies to all- I opened the bottle the champagne method... AWESOME!!!!!!! Hahahahahaha..... 

Welll, what comes after that is very hard to describe in words but it was really destressing and really fun... Oh ya.. My Domo-kun was being totured!!!! Argh!!!! 

PS: THANK YOU PW, J, A, CK, MM, WH, WE, P, G, F,  A AND ALL OTHERS THAT MADE MY DAY!! ^^

Cheers!! =D