Disappointment

It all started on a Tuesday evening... It was just like another day of training. We finally found someone to play with.. A bunch of guys that were just coincidentally there.. So, we asked to play with them..

Deal!!

We got to our positions.. I was trying out the things that Bona told me in the morning, trying my best to fight for the rebound... I ran in under the ring to prepare to jump and catch the ball as the point guard shoots.. Then, the most unfortunate happens.. I tripped and fell.. Heard a 'crack' sound.. I just sat at the spot that I fell... I could not get up without help, needed support to walk.. They moved me to the side so that the game could be carried on.. The ankle by that time was already swollen... We all thought it was just minor injury so didn't bother much, had ice packed that's all, didn't even want to inform my mom to lessen her worries..

The next morning, nothing could be done, the ankle is still swollen and it still hurts. I finally decided to call up my sis for help.. All my basketball teammates were super awesome ppl.. They took care of me and helped in all the ways that I needed help.. Sher Ling gave up Mines and sent me back to KL, met up with my sis..

Sis took me to a sports specialist to have a look at my injury.. Took x-ray and ultrasound.. Found out the horrible truth behind the injury... It's a stage 3 sprain which consists of a partial torn and full torn ligament... The doctor said I needed 6 weeks to a fully heal ligament....... Lots of things were running through my head at that time...

My basketball game how? My expedition how? My movie day how? My hiking trips how?

The doctor wanted to do a plaster on me but I kinda refuse and wanted a 2nd consultation.. Later called mom up.. It was then later arranged that I have to go back to Ipoh the next day.. Sis have to take another half day leave to get me back to Ipoh...

Told my captain that I couldn't make it to the Tri notts games.. She was so disappointed.. I could even feel it through the tone of her voice..

I felt so miserable then.. Nothing can be done.. Ppl around me have to help me this, help me that.. I have to let so many ppl down and ffk their plans.... I felt so troublesome to all the ppl.... I hate that feeling.. I really would want to do all the things all by myself..

Came back to Ipoh, went for the 2nd consultation, this time was worse, the doctor says, the ligaments need 1 month to grow back, 2nd month for it grow strong and the 3rd month for it to be stable and return to my normal activities.. And for the best healing method is to plaster my leg.. At that time, my feelings was undescribable... I really dunno what to say to the doctor, I want to refuse and at the same time have to think of advantages of plastering it.. I was so furstrated and disappointed...

First it was my phone and then now this.. All the things that I have been looking forward to do, the only motivation during my exams to keep me going has just vanished in a split second...

PS: I hope you read this and try to understand how I felt although I know you are also very disappointed of what happened despite all the sorrys I have said..