Emptiness

Dunno why.. Dunno how.... Even though I have anticipated the reply/response, but I always hope and long to see something more, something that would surprise me, something that I did not anticipate.... It never happened... Each and every single time ended with disappointment and emptiness... I sometimes wonder if it is an excuse or is it really the truth... =( Can someone tell me what I should think. Can someone give me assurance of what is happening... It is always that hard? Or is it just me??

5 months later, what will happen? No one can tell the future..

Well for now, I can only sit and wait and accept whatever may come to me now...