海阔天空

我希望心里可以永远觉得海阔天空,
永远自由自我.
为何越大越做不到.

好想返到年幼的时候.

给你

只希望能会到从前

Something little to share

I've always come across people saying 'God has a weird/funny sense of humour' Doesn't matter if He is trying to tell you something or answering your prayer.

Here's a personal small testimony to further illustrate that.

For the past few days, I had been praying, telling Him I need to wake up early to study and to get use to waking up early in preparation for my 9am papers. He indeed did answer my prayer. =) For 2 consecutive days, the cleaners from my hall came in to my room and woke me up. The first day was to change my curtains and the second day was to ask me bout a missing chair. LOL! And the day after I am able to wake up to my alarm clock which I normally just snooze until I dunno what happened.

Yup!! Funny sense of humour indeed and I thank Him for making life more interesting this way. =))

-wsw-

My Wish

Its has been 22 years since I was brought to this earth...
My life was never boring....
Every year, many good and bad experience, and through these I learn how to become a better person and how to take care of others feelings.

As I grow older, many things that doesn't make sense to me, made more sense now.
As I grow older, more and more responsibility are dumped on me.
As I grow older, I cannot be as carefree as I used to be because there are too many things to put into consideration.

Being who I am,
Being in the situation I grew up with,

I have become stronger than I thought,
I have become independent,
I have become protective,

Taking all these into account, being the older me,

I feel like I am a big big umbrella, to shelter others.
I feel the need to take care of others,
I feel the need to take up responsibilities and to make sure that everything is alright.

And because of all these,
No one has thought me as a weak person,
No one will come and protect me,
Everyone will think that "It's Shi Wei, she can do it."
Due to my character and my outlook.

Since highschool, all this weight I have been carrying. 

And it has not gone lighter a single bit,

but instead heavier and heavier.

I am getting tired...

I wish someone would come to me and say.

"Take this hand of mine,
I will share your weights,
I will protect you and watch over you,
I will give you comfort when you are sad,
You will not have to worry anymore."

Yeah.. This is my wish.


-wsw-

Heart warming

Once, when I was travelling London with a few friends. That night we were walking around sight-seeing and looking for the Tower Bridge to take pictures of. It was a very cold, wet and snowy night. Even ourselves with thick jackets, we feel quite cold. As we were walking along the pedestrian streets to the Tower Bridge after coming out of the underground station, we saw this poor homeless young men hugging himself so tight by the stairs under the bridge trying to take shelter. He looked like the usual people asking for alms, so we walked past him and went ahead to get a better view of the bridge to take picture of it. But as we were walking off, I saw this  pretty young lady went into Starbucks which is just nearby, bought a cup of hot drink and gave it to the young men. This act is just so heart warming and to know there still people like this in the society shows that there is still hope and we can change how things are.

This pretty young lady brings a smile in your heart. =))


I meant to post this up earlier but I forgot but now I remember. =)

红豆冰

我是打架鱼，你是botak... 可是，我可以不要那个结局吗？

我还是很想念你. 一直都期望着我们总有一天会在一起。 可是这都是贪念。在我脑海里的某一处一直都在提醒我这是没可能发生的事。 我还是放不下你。已经一年多了。我很期待我回来后会是怎样的发展，但也害怕。

为什么爱一个人那么难？为什么找一个伴侣那么难？我的要求并不是很高。一直一直都在祷告，等待白马王子出现。一年一年的过着，却还是一场空。

家庭从小已经没什么温暖，每天都吵闹。自小已经好像少了个爸爸。我也需要依靠。一个大男人来给我依靠。为什么我和你就这么的生命交叉。 我很不甘愿........

Ps: Reading your twitter is the only thing that makes me feel near to you.. =(

Surrender

How is it like to really surrender all things to God?

There are so much of desires and own goals that we want to achieve, but there it is written, be a humble servant and trust in Him in whatever you do and surrender all things.

I always thought surrendering is not as hard as it would seem, but when there is an area in your life that you just cannot let go and give up, I can tell you, it is darn hard! Darn hard to just let go of your choice, what you think is best and to let God take charge and let Him take you to the place He wants you to be.

Surrendering is not only serving him with all our might and soul but also to really obey and listen to Him on whatever he says whether you like it or not.

Dear Lord, if that is really what you want, please give me strength.

Amen.

Yes or no?

If I were to offer you a gum, would you take it or leave it??

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